I am NOT

I am NOT

There are a lot of things that I am NOT. A funny phrase to lead with I realize, but I think you can tell a lot about a person when you know who they are not. It’s hard to define who I am because I haven’t quite figured that out yet. Who has really?

I know I am not a singer. I try, it sounds awful, but I keep trying. I am not a preschool teacher -- I love children but I could not be stuck in a room with them all day. (I thank God everyday that he gave this gift of teaching to those who bless my children each day.) I do not eat onions! They are gross, and I hate biting into one. I have perfected my personal onion detector and can spot them in any and all foods. I am not a stay at home mom. God clearly called me to be a therapist and serve him in this way. I love my children, but they need to leave my house each day!  I am not good at taking a compliment. I try, but I just never know quite how to respond.

It’s good to take an inventory of what you are not. This helps you to define who you are and also increases your awareness of reactions and feelings that bubble up within you. I know that when someone gives me a compliment, I become uncomfortable and stumble over my words. So, when I start to feel this way, I know exactly what it is connected to. This is called self-awareness.

Self-awareness is being aware of what is going on inside of you, understanding why your body or thoughts are reacting in the way they are. Have you ever had a bigger emotional response then a situation warrants? If so, this may be a great time to pause, to take a little personal inventory of what thoughts and feelings are bubbling up and questioning the source of these feelings. It doesn’t have to take long. Take a short pause to do a little gut check, to become more aware of what is going on inside of you, both physically and emotionally.

We become more comfortable with who we are when we are more aware of what is going on within us, when we are defining who we are not, and when we are doing regular gut checks. We can understand our body and emotions as well as our reactions. We are changing and growing each day. Take time to know who you are today, in this moment. Make a commitment to become more self-aware in 2019.